When I was a child, deja vu was a common occurrence for me. I would be in a conversation with someone and the scene would be replaying in my head, word for word and action for action. This went on for a few years, until I was about six or seven. I talked about it happening to me to an adult, was told it was not normal and then it slowly stopped except for rare occasions.
When driving became second nature, there were days that turned into several days, when all I would hit was green lights in intersections. Once I became consciously aware of this happening, it would stop and traffic lights would go back to random.
Playing poker at a casino poker room, there were sessions that became automatic. I knew the outcome before the hand was played out. I knew when to press my 'luck', and when to slow down. Once again, when I became conscious of what was happening it all stopped and went back to random action.
The latest is what goes on at the Casino Craps Table. I have observed rhythms or patterns that were fairly consistent from session to session. These same patterns seemed to repeat over and over and over.
I spent many hours devising a strategy to take advantage of these patterns. I went through all the options, racked my brain for problems and off I went to the proverbial races.
At first it was wizardry. I could not believe I was the first person in the world to notice these patterns and take advantage of them. I would make an out of character larger than normal one roll bet, it would hit, the players around me exhaled, and I would get payed. Then it went away. Now it's some crazy random pattern, when I play, so bizarre, the people who appear to be winning, are pulling $100 bills out of their wallets to keep playing.
Our brain is very good at finding patterns, animals and faces in clouds, people watching us in public, repetitive actions that we no longer pay attention to, like the trip to the grocery store. We can check in and be aware or check out. Either way we end up at our destination.
Which leads me to the main point of this note. For several decades, I have believed that our life is a controlled simulation, and as soon as we get a glimpse of it, the algorithm changes to something that seems to be completely random. I'm left wondering if before I noticed, was it really happening or is it my brain looking for patterns?

